woefully off track

Posted: December 6, 2017 in Uncategorized

I’m so off track it’s not even funny. I keep “air quotes” organizing “air quotes” my writing projects but not actually doing any writing.

Am I that lazy? I can’t blame it on my fear of being a bad writer any longer. Two professional writers have told me I don’t suck and I am not wasting my time. So it must be laziness. Or fear? hmmmm…

Fear of what? I dunno?

But I must get a book finished, polished, find an editor, find an agent, and get the damn book published. geez

And I’m getting f**king tired of moving paper around and doing diddly squat on writing anything.

Yeah, the teeth pulling and the what-ever-the-hell-it-was-plague put me down but I’m all better now. See?

But, I AM NOT WRITING, GAH!

Fear…If I complete a book, find an agent, and get published what happens then? I have to write another book under contract. Then another and then another and then another and then….

I have so many projects now that I could keep writing books for, uh, seven years? Assuming I wrote and submitted a book once a year? I have some practically finished.

Okay, not practically finished but I have them started. And with notes and all kinds of stuff.

I want to finish a book and get it published. End of story!

 

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getting back on track

Posted: November 15, 2017 in Uncategorized

I have got to get back on track.

First, I had two teeth pulled on the 31st of October and for some reason, even though they healed pretty good, I had a hard time feeling better. It was like my body took it as a personal insult.

Then, secondly, I get some sort of mad disease like a plague or something last Thursday. On the left side of my throat there was a very painful golf ball that not only made my left ear hurt but also caused massive sinus ick to come out of all my head orifices. ewwwwww

I broke down and went to medcheck Sunday and they gave me a Z pack. I feel almost normal….well, my version of normal, anyway.

I did take two days off from work, Monday and Tuesday, because of the plague. When I went to work today my team was surprised that I had called in sick. And in two days in a row. I usually don’t get sick so I figure I’m good for another decade, at least.

I almost made it to work yesterday. All dressed and ready to go, even as lightheaded as I was, but when I went into the garage to get in the car I became real woozy. I had to grabbed onto something to keep steady.

Yeah, didn’t think it a smart move to drive like that. So I stayed home and slept most of the day. If I hadn’t started to feeling better I was going to call the doctor’s office but after my third nap I felt almost well again.

And this morning I felt even better so I went to work. I expected a huge mess but nope, the usual grumpy employees who think that because it seems that someone is able to come and go as he pleases that he is getting special treatment. I can’t tell them that I am waiting for HR to give me the letter of warning, which if in 30 days he has not straightened out the next meeting I have with him is to take his ID and escort him out of the building when I fire him.

But I can’t tell them that…..yet. I have already fired one person in my brief two year, almost three year, experience as a supervisor. Think they would know me by now.

Is so not my problem!

And now to get the house together again (it got a little bit messy while I was sick) and back to my writing (wrote diddly squat) since I didn’t write while I was sick.

But I have a plan….write Night, chapter six…while revising book two,  reading through book one (making notes on a legal pad as I read), and work on the demon short story.

Not bad for someone who just got over the plague, eh?

Read ya later!

Not much writing was done last week. I was sick and not sure what was wrong but I hurt everywhere so either I had the plague (which is doubtful since I had no other symptoms) or the weather decided to give my body hell and caused all my joints, and my back, to just scream pain all at the same time. Yay

So not much writing!

But now I’m looking at book one again, which is the beginning of the whole story that book two and book three originate from (kinda makes sense, eh?) and realize that all my facts are messed up and in the WHAT.THE.HECK. part of writing. Originally I was going to use my favorite word (begins with an F) but cleaned it up real quick. Not that I, personally, think the F word is bad, but that is a whole other blog post.

But I found out I have to clan chiefs for one clan. What? Yeah, and notes on all kinds of paper bits and all disorganized and maddening…not like a writer at all. (laughs and whimpers at the same time)

I am going to attempt to put the notes (stats, who is who, maps, etc.) all in one place. I did it with Night so it might work for this, too. Except it will cover three books, eventually, and not just one. Oh, and it will be hand written in a journal. Yes, I like to write long hand…shut up!

And next week I am having two teeth pulled so you know there won’t be much writing done next week, depending how I feel. Time will tell!

And now the holidays are coming up and work is going to be crazy and all the usual mayhem (mostly in my head, or course) will be running amok.

Wait, can you mayhem and run amok at the same time? hmmm…

So the basic points are these…

Not much writing but I’m going to organize the story of book one (which is the base for book two and book three) to get all the facts and peoples in one place. Yes, long hand in a journal because it makes me feel good to write long hand.

Hey, when I first started writing they didn’t have computers so shut up!

I will keep you posted of the organization and update you what is going on. If I had stayed on schedule I would have a short story completed but the mysterious sickness waylaid me so that didn’t happen.

I do have it started but suffered from writery interruptous so its not finished.

Read ya later!

book one

Posted: October 22, 2017 in Uncategorized

Book one is a hot mess….seriously. And I have no idea how it got this bad.

I made an appointment with Book One to get it all sorted and it is going to take more than one day. Understand, this is a book I thought I had a first draft finished.

NOPE!

It was just sitting there in all its mess and I’m thinking the first draft is finished while I started Book Two. Whoa…

So I’m sorting files on the computer and finding a lot of redundancies that I am deleting. And the hard copies have to be sorted, too, because there is more than one copy of the chapters I do have on hard copy.

Speaking of which, I had begun to put it together in what I call a beta copy (no, I do not know why I call it that, shut up) and decided, just today, to print the beta copy off so I can get a visual. I’m old and us old folks have to hold the hard copies in our hot little hands.

Shut up!

I also found my play and it really sucks, but I may be able to save it, or at least get an idea on how to salvage the idea, anyway.

And threw away a bunch of stuff from my Dungeon and Dragons days. I do have some neato (I’m old remember) characters so I am going to revise them eventually. And I wrote some notes on some older stories (real old, like  in the ’90s old) to see how I can revise them.

But Book One will have to have an outline finished, a list of characters and who they are to everyone else, and an ending. I have a beginning and a middle but no ending.

Told you it was a hot mess!

But I am making appointments with my writing so I can work on what I need to do on specific days. It will be interesting how well I keep to the schedule. Yes?

Read ya later!

decisions, decisions

Posted: October 10, 2017 in Uncategorized

I made the decision to stop writing on the WIPs and finish the first revision of a manuscript. If I want a completed manuscript for next year’s MWW I need to finish it and since book two is finished, more or less, in the rough draft, I’m going to work on the first revision so it can sit and cook for a few months. Then I can do a second, really take a hard look, revision and see what I need to do with it to get it polished. Hiring an editor, even though I am an editor, is not out of the question at the moment.

But first I have to do a first revision, fill in plot holes, and basically give a good going over, taking notes and such as I go along.

Then I can work on the other two, major, WIPs and some shorts.

Did I tell you I found all my novels? Yes, I found them in hard copy and the soft copies…and they are pathetic. I was surprised how old they were, really.

And crappy, of course, though I still like the stories. So I have those waiting in the wings of this crazy writery life stage.

Should I keep track of how many pages I finish revising or just plow through it and forget about a count?

I think I will just plow through it, there is a LOT to do, and only count time and word count when I write something on one of my other stories.

As any writer will tell you, you think you have it all planned out and can get it finished…the one you are working on at the time…..and BAM! A story, or character, pops out of thin air and demands immediate attention. I am not kidding! THIN.AIR!

It’s maddening, and the only thing you can do is stop, write down some particulars, and just hope the story , or character, will leave you in peace so you can finish what you were doing.

Of course they never do, for long.

*sigh*

In other news, I am on vacation and going to see what I can about what it would be to pretend I am retired from my day job and see what it would be like to only have to write my stories.

That must be amazing! Just nothing but write…well, at least until you get the agent and blah, blah, blah….so forth. I try not to think about that….much.

But writing and contracts and book signings and panels and conferences and stuff all writery blows my mind….so I try not to think about it, though I know it’s coming, eventually.

I will try and just see what it’s like to have all day to write instead of only the few hours before I have to go to bed so I can get up and get back to the job world the next day.

And this weekend I am going with my kids to a cabin for the weekend. Fun times ahead, I tell you. And yes, I will be bringing my writing. Duh!

Okay, so I made my decision and just hope I can get this project looking pretty good by the time I’m finished. From what I have been reading so far it’s a good story. It grabbed me a couple of times and I’m the writer.

Read ya later!

Yeah, I had to make an appointment with book one, it’s that messed up. I gots people being born who aren’t even born yet, people fighting people but in the wrong chapter before anything happens, and the list goes on. WTH??

And I keep forgetting the holy frickin mess book one is in and pick it up thinking I can just put it all together with no problem.

NOPE

And this is causing me to not write productively because I waste so much time trying to make sense of it.

So I came up with the brilliant idea to take one day out of the month and do nothing but work on book one. That will be the only time I touch it. The rest of the month will be the usual projects, one I am almost finished with, by the way.

Oh, yeah, but I have two new ideas and story starts. GAH!

This writing thing is crazy talk. Down and out crazy talk!

The one story I was working on with great advances pooped out on me, two new stories show up, one with two main characters and one without any at all, yet.

And still the two novels in the works and the one manuscript to finish editing so I can revise it. I use a two method way of revision, right or wrong, it’s the way I revise.

I red pen the changes on the typed hard copy and then go back and retype it…oh wait…if I type the revised copy that will be more paper to print off.

But, but, but…I work better with a hard copy.   😦

I may just man, er, woman up and print it off anyway. The trees are already dead anyway, right?

So that’s where I am now so I will keep you posted and let you know how that appointment idea works out. My first appointment with book one is October 22, 2017. It’s a Sunday, which is one of the reasons I picked it, and I can spend all day doing nothing but book one.

Yeah, we will see how that works out.

Read ya later!

I tried but….

Posted: October 1, 2017 in Uncategorized

I’m going to have to work on one of my other novels because the one I was working on, and doing pretty good at it for a while, just petered out. Well, not the story itself, it’s all still there, and I haven’t lost interest in it because I cannot wait to see all the things that are going to happen, but….it just petered out. I lost my momentum.

So I’m going to work on another one and see if I can get my momentum back. I know I can do it, it’s just being difficult, and I’m not writing. I must be one of those writers who has to have multiple novels going on at the same time.

Right now, the one I was working on is high fantasy and the other is an urban fantasy. And all the characters are different from each other so it’s not like I’m going to get them mixed up. In no way could I ever confuse Fernando with Grant. For one thing, they look completely different, so how could I mix them up?

Oh, yeah, and another thing, another character and story showed up. Well, an idea for a story…in general anyway. I wrote the beginning of it so I wouldn’t lose it but I will have to outline it and fill in the blanks. It might, actually, go with part of a story I found, that I cannot even remember, and see if I can get it written from only two viewpoints. I was thinking that I could switch POV between the two MC back and forth, and maybe even in FIRST PERSON. Oooooo…

And I tweaked the office again. I pulled out an unused file cabinet and filled it with stories that I had stored in brief cases.

No, I don’t know why I had all those stories stored in brief cases so don’t ask.

Going to start working on putting together book one and just hope I find the other chapters so I can complete it…right now it only has eleven chapters and I don’t think it’s finished yet. I will know more when I begin to put it together.

Um, I think that was more than one another thing.

Oh yeah, speaking of another thing. What, yes I was…see, up there? More than one thing…so I have another thing. Shut it!

I found a play I wrote a gabillion years ago. Seriously, a play. I had completely forgotten about it. geez

And I want to revise a short story for a contest,maybe. I was going to write a new short but it just wouldn’t come but I got some back story on some of the characters in one of the books so it’s all good.

New discoveries and old stories! yesssss……

Read ya later!