chapter 17 may be burned…i dunno

Posted: November 26, 2020 in Uncategorized

At first I thought chapter seventeen was being obstinate and if I sat butt in chair I could force it to write.

Silly writer, tricks are for plots!

Then it occurred to me that maybe it was the plot of the chapter. Not the rough plot but the in detail plot. Maybe 17 didnt like its plot and wanted to go in another direction.

Well…

That wasn’t it. I still haven’t finished the stupid chapter. Grrr…

So am considering moving on to a chapter that interests me, say, like chapter 19 with the vampires. Or even chapter 22 with the elves?

Both are in rough draft shape but I can always take pencil to paper and fill them in. Sometimes, that’s the most fun.

All I do know is that I have an unfinished first draft (that was supposed to be finished by July 2020), an unfinished short story, and an article. *sigh*

Eventually they will all be written and completed. The short and article to be sold, and the first draft put away to ‘cook’ while I edit another first draft.

I want something published and stuff sold, people. I can do this, I can do this , I can do this…

Read ya later!

chapter seventeen…yeah, i know

Posted: October 12, 2020 in Uncategorized

I am on vacay from my day job. Yeah, it’s a staycation but that’s okay. Saves me money as long as I don’t go to a bookstore or get on Amazon.

The plan is to finish chapter seventeen, start chapter eighteen, finish article, and find writing job to help set me up for my freelance career once I retire from my day job in two years. I should have something set up by then.

But the pandemic has put a crunch in my writing. I need to step it up and finish this first draft so I can go back and revise another book. I want to publish by 2022, if not sooner.

Yeah, I know, I have one book published but I want to publish more novels. And publish my articles for money.

And I have a short story to revise and find a buyer, too. I’m on the internet with some of my writing, but I want to be paid for my writing. It’s not the money so much as a validation. Especially when I start my freelance writing career.

My friends know me as a writer, and my business card says I am a writer, but I think when I make money with writing gigs then I can finally tell myself I am a writer.

Must be the imposter syndrome.

So….finish seventeen, start eighteen, revise short story, and finish article. That should keep me happy and busy this week.

How about you? What are you doing with your writing goals?

Read ya later!

anxiety and pandemic…ugh

Posted: September 14, 2020 in Uncategorized

I started writing chapter seventeen and finished the opening scene and the first part. All I have left is the second and third parts to write and the first draft of chapter seventeen is finished. Finally!

And yes, my chapters have an opening scene and three parts. Get over it!

This pandemic has been wrecking havoc with my anxiety. Even being a hermit it still depresses me when I can’t hang out with my kids or my friends like the good ole days. *sigh*

But there have been pandemics before and there will be pandemics after, humanity has prevailed. And this too shall pass!

Logically I know I will hang out with everyone again, logically. Emotionally it really is effing with me. LOL but I am a tough person and a survivor. I will go on.

Now that I am starting to think writing I am sure that’s a good sign and I can get back to where I was before the madness.

Um, not my madness, the world’s madness. Big difference!

Read ya later!

i really need to but…

Posted: August 12, 2020 in Uncategorized

I really need to be writing but the emotions with this pandemic keep washing over me and most of the time leaving me exhausted. I am grateful I am able to work from home and did not lose my job. I am grateful that I have a place to live and food to eat.

but I really need to write and I think that monkey on my back may be strong enough now to break through the depression and anxiety so I can finish chapter seventeen.

I did start it with the opening scene and my reader thought it was good, so yay. Now to finish the chapter.

and here we go in one, two, three…. we have a runner. dammit

Well, at least the first draft anyway, but I have been fighting this chapter since the pandemic. geez

Now I have a total of 53,253 words, total, of the first draft for night Yay!

My first finished and published book only had 40,708 words complete, so I am excited that I am able to write more story now. yessss……..

And chapter seventeen and eighteen are rough plotted out so all I have to do is write them. I call it rough plot because by the time I begin writing the chapters the characters and the storyline changes on me sometimes so I don’t hold myself to a solid plot.

Oh, its all structured with opening scene and parts one, two, and three but the characters have a way of changing the plot on you. Bastages!

But Night chapter sixteen is finished. yay

Oh yeah, I figured I would put part of the working title in the blogs so I would know which put is which. Most of the books are going to have the same chapter numbers. It only makes sense to differentiate which book I am blogging about when.

Read ya later!

It’s coming back a little bit at a time. Not as strong as I would it to be, but hey, I am not complaining. Um, much. But my deadline for the completion of Night has been pushed back to the end of this year, 2020, instead of the end of July 2020.

That’s okay, I am not writing every day and that’s on me. My anxiety level hasn’t been unmanageable, most of the time, but all of this ‘new normal’ has really been frickin with my anxiety.

I am on chapter sixteen and that’s more than half way through. yay

omg I saw my book, The Wizard of Tar Almonie, in a random Google ad with some other things. I was googling, per usual and their was an ad WITH MY BOOK ON IT. omg

I published that in July 2019 and I still get excited about it when I see it somewhere. wow

but I am well, I am working full time, still, and I have everything I need. I am blessed, I am loved, and I am very grateful.

Read ya later!

nope, still not writing

Posted: May 9, 2020 in Uncategorized

Oh sure, I’ve plotted some chapters, rough plotted a new short story , WHICH COULD BE TWO DIFFERENT STORIES ON THE SAME THEME, and some of my species are starting to show characteristics that I am taking notes on.

But still not writing.

Still not writing the words like the water currents in a stream. Someone has dammed the words and they aren’t flowing.

COVID is the culprit, I know it. I’m going through stages of fear, anger, and grief so fast I can’t keep up anymore. And I’m trying to not eat myself into oblivion though I do have one more pint of ice cream left.

Nope, still not writing and COVID is the culprit. All I have to do is learn how to kill this monster.

Can’t be too hard, eh? I kill monsters all the time. It’s what I do, writer that I am. I kill the monsters. All I have to do is figure out how to kill this monster so I can break the dam and let the words flow again.

That’s all I have to do, kill the monster.

Read ya later!

not writing

Posted: April 19, 2020 in Uncategorized

Ever since the pandemic my writing has suffered. I think it’s because of the idea of this virus that you can have without knowing you have it and it could kill you and all those that you love, really had my emotions mixed up.

At first I didn’t think much about it.

March 9 I was on staycation. Took a week off for a vacation and thought I would get in some writing. And I kind of did at the beginning. I didn’t have any high fevers, the most I think was 100, but I think by that Tuesday I woke up with an extremely sore throat and flu type ickies. But by Thursday the sore throat was gone, I gargled with salt water, and the flu like symptoms disappeared. Yes, I thought to myself, I am better.

Then the sinuses started up bad and I went to the immediate care because I thought I had a sinus infection. I did but it was viral and go home, I’m too old to be out with the corona virus going around, especially at a medical place. But by Sunday I was coughing and hacking and went back to immediate care (I wasn’t paying attention to the covoid thing yet, because it was still in China or something) and was told to go home, it was a viral sinus infection and, again, a person in my age group should not be out.

By Monday and Tuesday it was awful, so I called in sick though I was supposed to be at work, Staycation over. Wednesday I felt better again so I went in the office to get my team teleworking (I only had two people who teleworked) but my boss had most of them worked out. The rest of the week I finished everyone else up and we all teleworked.

Covoid was sweeping across the states by then and I was glad to be home. And I wasn’t sick anymore from the sinus infection.

Now we are all teleworking until further notice.

Wait, what has this to do with my writing? Everything!

First I was sick and did not write, and then the virus thing turned into a pandemic and it freaked me out. So no writing was done though I did start on chapter sixteen. I had it plotted out during my staycation in between days I didn’t feel icky.

But it’s not finished and seventeen hadn’t been plotted out, at the time. But I did manage to work on eighteen. There is no rhyme or reason to writing, it seems.

But I think my writing is coming back now that I stopped having anxiety attacks because I wasn’t writing.

I put too much pressure on myself. I should be writing, why am I not writing, it’s not finished, I’m behind schedule and blah blah blah….

I had a stern talk with myself, yesterday, saying the writing will get done when the writing gets done, and I am allowed be freaked out about the pandemic. It’s a bad thing going one, people are dying all over the world, and it will all be okay. One day, maybe soon.

Write when you can write and don’t worry about it, I told myself. That was yesterday.

Today, I am plotting out seventeen. No, sixteen is still not finished and I need a part three for eighteen, but seventeen is being plotted. Ideas are coming to me again and I feel less stressed about it.

I still have to do my passive income ideas, too, but that will come in time, also. I am getting more ideas with it. I need to do more research but things are coming to me now and I think, that as long as I don’t put too much pressure on myself and have anxiety attacks, I will be okay and I can write again. Yay!

Read ya later!

chapter fifteen finished

Posted: March 22, 2020 in Uncategorized

During my staycation, I wanted to finish chapter fifteen and start chapter sixteen this weekend, but I got a nasty sinus infection half way through my staycation, and then the COVID19 pandemic happened and my priorities changed.

But I managed to finish chapter 15, finally. I don’t know if I was able to write so much because I was so relieved the sinus infection was just a sinus infection, after all, or what.

I do have over 50 thousand words written so far and that was only chapter fifteen. I have nine more chapters, for the first draft, to finish so who knows how many total words I will have on this first draft. A lot more I hope, for the revisions later. I would like a larger book but I don’t seem to be that kind of writer. And that is okay.

I have a book, on a bookshelf, in a physical bookstore, on a bookshelf. I am hilariously happy with that fact!

The imposed isolation does not bother me and teleworking at home seems to be less stressful for me. I was sick last Monday and Tuesday, went in to work Wednesday to get everyone set up for telework, but found out most of them were already set up. Thursday and Friday I teleworked and it wasn’t as bad as I thought.

Going to the grocery stores is horrendous. Well, not horrendous but most of the people walk around, all close to each other, with no masks and stuff. Wow! I will be having my groceries delivered. Still weird but I don’t have to take the chance of the virus. And I get away with no grocery shopping which I detest, and no people. I will probably continue with grocery delivery. Instacart is pretty easy to use and as long as you don’t need it right away its easy. I will give my final verdict with they come Wednesday.

But chapter fifteen is finished, the house has been cleaned and organized, and it’s quiet with no people. I do miss hanging out with my kids and my friends but we can pick up after this insanity is over with and have fun.

Read ya later!

I found a local bookstore who will take local authors books on consignment. Well, actually, my daughter found the bookstore and during our mom and daughter day out she showed it to me.

I saw they had a local author bookshelf and asked if they took authors books and they said yes, on consignment. What?!

I took twelve copies of my book to the store today, and it is not sitting on a few shelves around the store, and even on a table. OMG

So, there it is, next to Poncho Ventures Out, and labeled as a New Arrival.

New Arrival-my book, Wizard of Tar Almonie

My book is in a bookstore, on a bookshelf, in a bookstore!

Thank you Red Dog Books for making my dream a reality! This has been a long time coming.

Read ya later!